I dream about where I’d like to be, places to go, cultures to experience, what I see myself doing, who I want to be with, and more.
Then, something amazing happens! I sometimes actually get there to those places I had envisioned or dreamed about. So many memories and moments turn into fuel for more dreams resulting from these trips.
Yet, I have a problem.
I sometimes get caught up in the thinking and dreaming so much, that I have a difficult time in the now. I’m where the “rubber meets the road”. It’s life. It’s enduring, tough, awkward, beautiful, messy, and more.
The swirl of getting rid of expectations, learning how community looks with those around you, choosing to be active with ministry/life, dealing with things you can’t control in your environment, and so much more. Things happen back “home” that you deeply desire to physically be there. Proposals, weddings, games, parties, babies, funerals, and more.
It’s a mess. Yet, it’s the best way to grow even when a part of us doesn’t want to.
I’m in the middle of this. I’ve watched, listened, and discussed about doing these things and dreams, and now I’m here…in the thick of it. I have to let it soak in through my thinking. I have to tell myself to stop backing down and participate. It’s an ongoing battle within.
There’s always that stupid little voice, which says it isn’t worth it…but it truly is Worth It at the end of the day when the sun sets.