I’ve shared on this site large bits and pieces of my story and journey of the past few years. I’ve been applying for teaching jobs since the beginning of 2013 after a trip was abruptly shut closed in my face after a year plus of working to go on it has left me with a lifetime of experience and insight. Door after door after door I knock hoping for a chance and they remained closed.
Imagine 200+ doors all lined up in a giant hall that are all opened, but when you go by to see if you could come in they all close in your face. No matter how well you prepare yourself with words or looks, they just shut you down. Debilitating is a decent word that could be used to describe one’s feelings. Insanity also comes up to the top of the vocabulary when doing something such as that.
I never kept count of how many jobs I’ve applied for the past 2.5 years, but it’s a lot. I didn’t sit on my hands and wonder if anyone would help me out during that time either. I did what I thought was best in improving my resume and to make ends meet. I’m extremely thankful for the mentoring and lessons I learned before this tough time. The encouragement and life people spoke to me years ago continued to resonate deep within me. Resonating louder than the thoughts of hopelessness even though sometimes those desperate thoughts became fairly loud at times. Choosing time after time to speak life not death. Not everyday was pretty, and if it was then it wouldn’t be as memorable.
Slowly and surely I’ve come to a “promised land” area. The battle doesn’t stop, but only magnifies. My responsibility has grown even more. More crucial decisions are to be made even more. Yet, that’s always going happen no matter who you are. I am absolutely Thrilled for these new opportunities and work! It’s not exactly where I see myself yet, but it’s an amazing step forward. It’s time to buckle down and get to work, because I definitely want to do a good job with what has been given to me.
Joshua 21:43-45 “So the Lord gave Israel all the land he had sworn to give their ancestors, and they took possession of it and settled there. The Lord gave them rest on every side, just as he had sworn to their ancestors. Not one of their enemies withstood them; the Lord gave all their enemies into their hands. Not one of all the Lord’s good promises to Israel failed; every one was fulfilled.”
One cannot reject that this event ever happened, because it actually historically occurred. Yes, I realize there are tons of other messages that can be taken away from these 3 verses.
Lets say you get to your goal, endpoint, climax, or whatever it may be. Ok…now what? Is it time to just roll over and die? No. Set new goals, and continue on from that point while not forgetting the life lessons you’ve learned along the way with eagerness for the MORE.
The base of it all to its core is…what do You really truly want to do?